In a deep dilemma...
(Monday, January 25, 2010/12:10 AM)
I'm dipping into a state of listlessness... No success in getting a part-time job, everybody's studying hard in school and I'm doing practically nothing, migraine treatment in the hospital tentatively put on hold for another 5 more weeks but still gives me a sense of impending doom, and after drafting up travel plans for a few days, my potential travel partner told me that he cannot take leave from his work. Sighhh... =(
You might ask me, why give myself unnecessary stress? I should just go to Japan by the official date scheduled for me. Well, I simply feel that I should take this opportunity to relax and take a breather by my own. Then, on the other hand, I don't know why I'm so afraid to take a bold step to travel independently. Is it the inconveniences which I would encounter as a sole traveler? Or am I lacking confidence in my Japanese and socializing skills?
Mehhh... I'm utterly confused... I hope my admission package will come soon, so that I can get a little busier settling my visa and linking my bank account. I have to do something constructive before I can truly feel the excitement of traveling abroad for the first time as a student.
The famous "Three Sights of Japan". Marvelously beautiful scenic spots where you can spend a little bit more time to absorb and appreciate centuries of tradition and culture. These are places where having friends might actually be a hindrance if you want to take things at your own pace.
I gotta weigh all my options... Emailing every single Japanese friend whom I know. Meeting a few familiar faces every few days within my journey should dispel feelings of loneliness. I'm hoping it'll really become a reality... I hate that "so near yet so far" kinda feeling. (>.<)
You might ask me, why give myself unnecessary stress? I should just go to Japan by the official date scheduled for me. Well, I simply feel that I should take this opportunity to relax and take a breather by my own. Then, on the other hand, I don't know why I'm so afraid to take a bold step to travel independently. Is it the inconveniences which I would encounter as a sole traveler? Or am I lacking confidence in my Japanese and socializing skills?
Mehhh... I'm utterly confused... I hope my admission package will come soon, so that I can get a little busier settling my visa and linking my bank account. I have to do something constructive before I can truly feel the excitement of traveling abroad for the first time as a student.
The famous "Three Sights of Japan". Marvelously beautiful scenic spots where you can spend a little bit more time to absorb and appreciate centuries of tradition and culture. These are places where having friends might actually be a hindrance if you want to take things at your own pace.
I gotta weigh all my options... Emailing every single Japanese friend whom I know. Meeting a few familiar faces every few days within my journey should dispel feelings of loneliness. I'm hoping it'll really become a reality... I hate that "so near yet so far" kinda feeling. (>.<)
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