Just a little while more to go...
(Tuesday, November 3, 2009/11:19 PM)
Ack too much conflict for these past few days, I'm getting worn out by all the tension... LOL! But I'm glad I can step aside for now cos' Kenneth and Janet are finally gonna thrash things out tomorrow. So, I shall leave it to them to settle their personal conflict. Hopefully, the outcome would be desirable... =) And yes, Debbie, you're my best gal-pal thus far, of cos' I can talk to you on a more intimate level as well. Sorry for not including you! =P
I've spent so much time and effort worrying about my friends, and I'm afraid I'll have to be selfish till the end of Nov as I rush through my final assignments and revision for my exams. But I'm pleasantly surprised that I'm not as angsty as I was last semester. Internal disputes within project groups where the members are some of my closer friends in NUS + Piling assignment deadlines = one angsty, emo Benedict. =P
A huge burden has been lifted off my chest today cos' I completed my presentation (together with the report, the project is a hefty 50% of the module). I tried to be adventurous and improvise outside of my script and I HAD A FREAKIN' MENTAL BLOCK! =S I was stumped for 5-7 secs as I glanced sheepishly at my lecturer as he gave me a little nod of encouragement.
I seriously have no clue why my mind isn't as nimble as before. My intelligence is still intact cos' I can churn out elaborate essays, but I just can't think on the spot for nuts! Together with my worsening problem of poor enunciation of my spoken words, I'm fearing that the migraine which has been plaguing me for over 2 years is something much more. Perhaps I'm just scaring myself... Perhaps it's a spiritual warfare I have to go through to emerge stronger...
But I guess it's no point worrying about things which I have no control over. No matter what, I'll move on my life's journey bravely with the grace of God. And thank God that I just received an email from my computing tutor who rectified a bug in my program and half of the burden I have for my final computing assignment which is due this Sunday is gone. =)
Ohhh... And I just checked my gradebook for my last assignment... I've gotten an A- for my previous assignment! =D We had to create a 3D world and I was feeling superbly inferior cos' I was using predefined shapes in the software database, whereas the crazy foreigners are giving 3D games (think in terms of at least Counter-Strike quality graphics) a run for their money. I'm sooo fortunate to have a great lecturer and tutors who consider effort as a grading criteria as well. =D
If God is for me, who can be against me!? I shall hold on to this promise and dash towards the finishing line... on 23rd Nov. It's coming... (^-^)
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