Kristal's birthday party!~
(Sunday, September 20, 2009/9:14 AM)
Lol, I'm supposed to meet my new acquaintance from CHC at 10 AM to go down together to the Japanese school festival, but she woke up late, so I have to laze around for abit first. =S
I cried bucket loads in service yesterday. Has been a long while since I shed tears in the presence of the Lord. Indeed, I'm feeling frustrated and helpless at times, being seemingly 'unfairly' treated, whilst the world is enjoying their lives.
Despite my ailments disrupting my focus, I studied way harder than my peers, and yet during my exams, the lecturer had to use their own terminology and I couldn't comprehend (because I studied the friggin' TEXTBOOK) and did that question wrongly. Even a weaker peer in maths commented that was a giveaway question, and I couldn't help but zone out after that. Why, God, why!?
Which is why I feel convicted by Pastor Kong's message, speaking about trials having a purpose, and believing in God to show us the bigger picture in due season. I want to trust God that my illnesses are for a purpose. Likewise for my studies. I had surrendered my burdens up to him as my tears flowed down my cheeks, so now it's up to Him to lead me. =)
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