(Monday, June 8, 2009/12:34 AM)
Convicted by the recent sermons about servanthood, I gritted my teeth and gave serving choir another go for Sat's 3.30 PM service. I tried to play my cards cool but ended up tripping up anyway, and the awkwardness which I felt didn't help compose myself well too.
And I'm amazed how insensitive some people are, ironically the Christians whom I should trust in as my fellow comrades. It took me 8 long years of honing my singing talent under the strict guidance of professional choir conductors (unlike the slipshod training I'm receiving now), before I enjoyed the fruits of my labour. Celebrating the joy of cliching SYF Gold with my secondary school choir, and given the opportunity to perform on Emerge Talentime.
Yet, these wannabe-poseurs waltz into church choir through what I would consider, a fluke audition (which focuses on the outward appearance than actual vocal prowess), with an air of arrogance and flamboyance, acting like they know it all. Sheesh, I can't stand people who belittle the art of singing, especially since I have experienced the long tedious journey which singing has brought me through.
I'd probably come to an ultimatum by the time my vacation ends. If I remain unhappy in choir, I think I should quit so that my place can be given to another dude who is passionate about church choir for whatever reason. *Shrugs*
Thankfully, after-service fellowship helped lift my spirits a little. Thinking it's gonna just be another conventional fellowship, I wasn't enthusiastic to say the least. But surprisingly, I got in some quality time with some of my friends.
Decki - I think I delved too deep into his life too fast, asking him questions about his past relationships. I realized I might be a little insensitive, but well, I'm still in the process of knowing him better so that I can adapt to him.
We had a good time talking about school and common friends we have in uni, tho'. =) I'm surprised that he's also in the same situation as me. We've experienced shallow friendships in uni and have decided to let them go. He's also a 'lone ranger' as I am. Well, now that we're in the same CG, we can depend on each other more, I guess! =D
Francis - He's really a very competent mood-setter *lol*. If only I have 1/2 of his jovial attitude... Glad to have him as a senior and friend!
Jamie & Janet - For some reason, we started talking about the Korean F4 and had fun chatting on our way back home on the MRT. =)
KC - I'm thankful my bro is back to his normal self. No matter what happens, u still have ur friends, and God has a purpose and reason for everything in our lives!
Hmmm... My readership seemed to have gone down with the current situation happening in my good buddies' lives, and the aftermath of my soured relationships last semester. Guess I'll just treat this blog as a place to let loose my feelings if I feel the need to. Probably not gonna update it as regularly anymore *rofl*!
Singaporean males are very pitiful... Really... The army has and never will let go of its grasp on us...
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