Just a short detour from my holiday blogposts...
(Sunday, May 31, 2009/12:13 PM)
I was too caught up with my own problems recently, that I failed to notice cracks surfacing in the lives of some of my closest friends. Humans are imperfect, everyone has their own fair share of problems. I was stupid enough to dwell on mine as if nothing else in the world can compare, so I'm trying my best to make up for lost time now, re-establishing relationships with friends who matter the most to me.
I've not conversed so freely and openly for such a long time, ever since the far-flung days of E30, 6 years ago. For the first time in fellowship, I felt the intimacy of the brotherhood I've longed for in years, ever since I've drifted away from Team AY. Time was not an issue. In the conventional CG fellowship setting, I would impatiently glance at my watch. But on both Friday and Saturday, we ended up taking cab after midnight *lol*!
We were real people dealing with real problems, without any hint of arrogance or superiority which many CHC members fall trap to. We talked about our initial struggles in church and the fundamental flaws in the system. What turned most non-believers away from CHC would be the hierarchical system, which caused members to pursue superior positions in church, leading to overambition, warped doctrines, backstabbing and hypocrisy.
I'm particularly sensitive regarding this issue because of my experience in the first E348 which left a bad taste in my mouth, and how my NUS friend backslided due to the mismanagement of the NUS campus ministry. We termed it as "THAT... phase" *hah*. So I implore any of my dear CHC brothers and sisters who are reading this... Be relational instead of legalistic, genuine Christians who cultivate pure hearts in engaging people around you...
When I knew about the formation of my new CG, I couldn't muster a single ounce of enthusiasm. Besides being elated in having W429 intact as a whole, the other CGs which were merged seemed distant and belonged in the "conventional fellowship" category. But I'm glad that my old friendship with Kenneth, the senior-junior respect and friendship I have for Francis since JC, and of cos' my 15 year long friendship with KC have sparked off and established a whole new brotherhood, and I pray that it will bring us to greater heights in our walk with God.
I also pray that things go well for my close friends who are experiencing problems in their lives. No matter what decision each one of them make, I hope they think of the one question which would help steer our lives as Christians "Does my decision bring me closer to God, or further away from Him?"
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