I'm becoming an emo-kid =S
(Saturday, February 28, 2009/2:29 PM)
I thought things might take a turn for the better after beginning consultations with my psychiatrist, starting afresh in the church choir ministry, but it seems as if it's going downhill instead?
Perhaps, the church acquaintance whom I mentioned a few posts back about bluntly commenting that I look like an emo-kid might be telling the truth afterall. Even I, myself, feel as if I'm becoming more and more emo. =S
I'm just feel so disappointed and weary as I invest into other people's lives and yet I'm not receiving the same amount of investment. I know it's not their fault and I don't blame them. Maybe it's cos' of my boring personality. Or maybe it's just cos' they have better friends. Afterall, everyone has the right and freedom to choose whom they should invest their time and effort in. But somehow, I subconsciously get a feeling of frustration and rejection. I really hate this feeling.
In NUS, gals are usually in their own worlds and guys are trying too hard to impress the gals. (Just a generalization! Don't feel offended if u're my friend from NUS, cos' I might not be referring to u =P) In church, I'm surrounded by hypocrites and act-cool wannabes.
I'm beginning to regret my choice to study in NUS. If I had chosen NTU instead, I would be back in my comfort zone, since most of my cliques from sec school and JC are studying there. But I believe everything happens for a reason. It's just that I can't see what God's plans are in stored for me in this school. Yet...
As I went for my first choir practice on Tuesday, I saw so many act-cool wannabes, I really felt like puking. Decked out in accessories, with big belts and stylish caps. I even saw one army guy proudly wearing his blue beret (service support, mind u. If it was a red Commandos beret, I would understand a lil' bit more). I mean... C'MON! It's a friggin' choir practice in the most heartland-ish of all heartlands in Singapore, Jurong friggin' West Extension!
I know we should dress up to honour God, but is that really their intention? Or do they just want to impress members from the opposite sex? God knows... Furthermore, some dudes are really rowdy as if they owned the place. But I was lucky to get acquainted with Desmond through KC though. He seems like a genuinely nice guy. =)
I'm not referring to my beloved CG W429 of cos'! =) Entering a new CG next month is yet another challenge for me...
So, I guess, the only way to deter me from having such pessimistic thoughts, I've decided to shut myself down emotionally. Don't worry guys, I'm not becoming super emo! =) Probably would only apply this to those people who aren't appreciating my investment in their lives.
Rather than unnecessarily yearning for their attention and affection as a reward for my friendship, I've decided to heck them and try to live life as naturally as possible even if they're not in the picture.
I've tried this 'distancing' method on some of my friends in the past, and it worked out great. We're not best of friends, but at least we have lesser frictions, and can get along comfortably now. Seems like it's time to deploy this strategy again...
Got a darn flu since Tues choir practice too. It's kinda tough maintaining a strong front when even my family doesn't understand my predicament. Sigh... Sometimes, I really feel a strong urge to let go of everything here in Singapore, migrate to Japan, start a clean slate where no one knows me. Oh well...
Perhaps, the church acquaintance whom I mentioned a few posts back about bluntly commenting that I look like an emo-kid might be telling the truth afterall. Even I, myself, feel as if I'm becoming more and more emo. =S
I'm just feel so disappointed and weary as I invest into other people's lives and yet I'm not receiving the same amount of investment. I know it's not their fault and I don't blame them. Maybe it's cos' of my boring personality. Or maybe it's just cos' they have better friends. Afterall, everyone has the right and freedom to choose whom they should invest their time and effort in. But somehow, I subconsciously get a feeling of frustration and rejection. I really hate this feeling.
In NUS, gals are usually in their own worlds and guys are trying too hard to impress the gals. (Just a generalization! Don't feel offended if u're my friend from NUS, cos' I might not be referring to u =P) In church, I'm surrounded by hypocrites and act-cool wannabes.
I'm beginning to regret my choice to study in NUS. If I had chosen NTU instead, I would be back in my comfort zone, since most of my cliques from sec school and JC are studying there. But I believe everything happens for a reason. It's just that I can't see what God's plans are in stored for me in this school. Yet...
As I went for my first choir practice on Tuesday, I saw so many act-cool wannabes, I really felt like puking. Decked out in accessories, with big belts and stylish caps. I even saw one army guy proudly wearing his blue beret (service support, mind u. If it was a red Commandos beret, I would understand a lil' bit more). I mean... C'MON! It's a friggin' choir practice in the most heartland-ish of all heartlands in Singapore, Jurong friggin' West Extension!
I know we should dress up to honour God, but is that really their intention? Or do they just want to impress members from the opposite sex? God knows... Furthermore, some dudes are really rowdy as if they owned the place. But I was lucky to get acquainted with Desmond through KC though. He seems like a genuinely nice guy. =)
I'm not referring to my beloved CG W429 of cos'! =) Entering a new CG next month is yet another challenge for me...
So, I guess, the only way to deter me from having such pessimistic thoughts, I've decided to shut myself down emotionally. Don't worry guys, I'm not becoming super emo! =) Probably would only apply this to those people who aren't appreciating my investment in their lives.
Rather than unnecessarily yearning for their attention and affection as a reward for my friendship, I've decided to heck them and try to live life as naturally as possible even if they're not in the picture.
I've tried this 'distancing' method on some of my friends in the past, and it worked out great. We're not best of friends, but at least we have lesser frictions, and can get along comfortably now. Seems like it's time to deploy this strategy again...
Got a darn flu since Tues choir practice too. It's kinda tough maintaining a strong front when even my family doesn't understand my predicament. Sigh... Sometimes, I really feel a strong urge to let go of everything here in Singapore, migrate to Japan, start a clean slate where no one knows me. Oh well...
As long as God is real to me, I'll live life bravely
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Kena "psycho-ed" today
(Tuesday, February 24, 2009/12:54 AM)
Went for another wallet-busting $199 consultation with my psychiatrist this afternoon. My mum was flabbergasted when she learned that I had to go for another consultation, meaning another $199 takes its flight. I know it's hefty on my family's finances... But I need some dire concern in the meantime, instead of worrying incessantly about money. Sigh... =(
Psychiatrists are super, scarily smart intellectual people. Don't offend one!
Me: I'm afraid all my health problems will reduce my life span.
Psych: How old are your grandparents?
Me: My maternal grandparents are well into their 70s, and my late paternal grandfather lived until 88 years of age.
Psych: So, from a genetic argument, you'll have a high chance of living till a ripe old age as well. What's bothering you then?
Me: Hmmm...
Me: I do not have a confidant to talk about my private problems.
Psych: Do you have a best friend?
Me: Yes, but he has a girlfriend, so I decided to let him go and carry on his life.
Psych: How about your friends in university now?
Me: They're good friends but not exactly that close where I feel comfortable confiding in them.
Psych: So, what do you propose you should do?
Me: Errr...
Psych: Are you happy with yourself?
Me: Not totally...
Psych: Why? What would make you more happy with yourself?
Me: Errr... More confidence perhaps?
Psych: So, what would make you more confident?
Me: Errr... *mental block*
She also asked me to write down 3 wishes, 1 of which I wrote to have a confidant, preferably a girlfriend. She assumed I'm UBER desperate for a girlfriend and began to advise me non-stop not to loosely find any girl to become my girlfriend just because I need a confidant.
Oh gawd, if I'm that desperate, I'd have found one long ago *lol*. I have solid principles in life, okay? =) Anyhow, she made me do a homework to assess my emotional needs, similar to Pastor Kong's recent sermons on relationships. I almost lol'ed when I saw "sexual fulfillment" as part of the questionaire. =P
Hoping the next consultation would be the last, or else it would be awkward explaining the situation to my mum, especially regarding the strain on our finances.
After the appointment and lunch, I headed down to JP for a long overdue haircut. Luckily, Storm was rather empty, and my usually popular hairstylist was idle and all-ready to give me a haircut. (^_^)
He suggested that I cut Luo Zhi Xiang's new hairstyle and I was like "lawl, seriously?". But actually, it's quite similar to my current hairstyle, just that my "pigtail" is gone, and the layering is done in different areas. But the general feel is still about the same, so I heaved a sigh of relief, cos' I thought he's gonna try something funny with my hair *lol*!
My hair isn't thick enough to emulate his hairstyle well enough though, but it'll suffice. Come to think of it, Weijie kinda looks like Luo Zhi Xiang. =D
Back at home, a random rush of inspiration hit me and I "composed" a song for submission for contribution to DT Zone's budding new CD. Hope it gets selected! =D Also attending my first ever church choir practice tomorrow!
Yet another boring edition of Benedict's blog news. Thanks for reading!
Psychiatrists are super, scarily smart intellectual people. Don't offend one!
Me: I'm afraid all my health problems will reduce my life span.
Psych: How old are your grandparents?
Me: My maternal grandparents are well into their 70s, and my late paternal grandfather lived until 88 years of age.
Psych: So, from a genetic argument, you'll have a high chance of living till a ripe old age as well. What's bothering you then?
Me: Hmmm...
Me: I do not have a confidant to talk about my private problems.
Psych: Do you have a best friend?
Me: Yes, but he has a girlfriend, so I decided to let him go and carry on his life.
Psych: How about your friends in university now?
Me: They're good friends but not exactly that close where I feel comfortable confiding in them.
Psych: So, what do you propose you should do?
Me: Errr...
Psych: Are you happy with yourself?
Me: Not totally...
Psych: Why? What would make you more happy with yourself?
Me: Errr... More confidence perhaps?
Psych: So, what would make you more confident?
Me: Errr... *mental block*
She also asked me to write down 3 wishes, 1 of which I wrote to have a confidant, preferably a girlfriend. She assumed I'm UBER desperate for a girlfriend and began to advise me non-stop not to loosely find any girl to become my girlfriend just because I need a confidant.
Oh gawd, if I'm that desperate, I'd have found one long ago *lol*. I have solid principles in life, okay? =) Anyhow, she made me do a homework to assess my emotional needs, similar to Pastor Kong's recent sermons on relationships. I almost lol'ed when I saw "sexual fulfillment" as part of the questionaire. =P
Hoping the next consultation would be the last, or else it would be awkward explaining the situation to my mum, especially regarding the strain on our finances.
After the appointment and lunch, I headed down to JP for a long overdue haircut. Luckily, Storm was rather empty, and my usually popular hairstylist was idle and all-ready to give me a haircut. (^_^)
He suggested that I cut Luo Zhi Xiang's new hairstyle and I was like "lawl, seriously?". But actually, it's quite similar to my current hairstyle, just that my "pigtail" is gone, and the layering is done in different areas. But the general feel is still about the same, so I heaved a sigh of relief, cos' I thought he's gonna try something funny with my hair *lol*!
My hair isn't thick enough to emulate his hairstyle well enough though, but it'll suffice. Come to think of it, Weijie kinda looks like Luo Zhi Xiang. =D
Back at home, a random rush of inspiration hit me and I "composed" a song for submission for contribution to DT Zone's budding new CD. Hope it gets selected! =D Also attending my first ever church choir practice tomorrow!
Yet another boring edition of Benedict's blog news. Thanks for reading!
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Thank God for the little things
(Monday, February 23, 2009/12:51 AM)
Thanks for everyone's concern this past week! I'm feeling much better already, but after that ill-fated ordeal, I've kinda developed a new phobia for puking *LOL*! Even if it's a harmless burp, I'd try not to because I'm just so afraid puke would come out instead. =S
I've been reminded time and time again this week to thank God for the little things. It doesn't have to be an earth-shattering miracle for me to express continual gratitude to the God who loves me unconditionally. I'm just glad God is always by my side protecting me through the tough times. =)
As CG reshuffling draws nearer, W429's attendance has been on the decline... Terri is busy with her A-Lvl preparations (Don't be too anxious and keep calm! There's more than half a year left to the A-Lvls. I believe with all my heart and in God that u'll do just fine. =D). And I've not seen Junwei at all in the year of 2009 thus far? I think so...
KC had to go for some company event and Debbie was reluctantly dragged along *lol*. And we just feel so lost without the usual 'event organisers' around *hehe*. Janet suggested that we tag along E348, but I reckoned it'll be somewhat awkward, so I contemplated not going. But oh well, in the end, still kena peer-pressured to go, courtesy of Adeline. (^_^)
As I expected, it WAS a little awkward cos' the girls of E348 have formed such a strong bond such that even Janet can't 'infiltrate' their little private chats *ROFL*! Well, they sensed the boredom and tension after awhile, and suggested we play some group games so that everyone can join in.
The 4 sole survivors of W429 *LOL*!
I've been reminded time and time again this week to thank God for the little things. It doesn't have to be an earth-shattering miracle for me to express continual gratitude to the God who loves me unconditionally. I'm just glad God is always by my side protecting me through the tough times. =)
As CG reshuffling draws nearer, W429's attendance has been on the decline... Terri is busy with her A-Lvl preparations (Don't be too anxious and keep calm! There's more than half a year left to the A-Lvls. I believe with all my heart and in God that u'll do just fine. =D). And I've not seen Junwei at all in the year of 2009 thus far? I think so...
KC had to go for some company event and Debbie was reluctantly dragged along *lol*. And we just feel so lost without the usual 'event organisers' around *hehe*. Janet suggested that we tag along E348, but I reckoned it'll be somewhat awkward, so I contemplated not going. But oh well, in the end, still kena peer-pressured to go, courtesy of Adeline. (^_^)
As I expected, it WAS a little awkward cos' the girls of E348 have formed such a strong bond such that even Janet can't 'infiltrate' their little private chats *ROFL*! Well, they sensed the boredom and tension after awhile, and suggested we play some group games so that everyone can join in.
The 4 sole survivors of W429 *LOL*!It's study break this week! I bet most people would go "ohhh, lucky u!", but actually I'm going "ohhh, shit". I have a History mid-term research essay to complete, Japanese linguistics homework, muster my noob programming skills to commence coding my computing project on Flash, and revision for the mid-terms of 2 computing modules.
Truckload of shit waiting to pour down on me (that was crude but oh well =P)... And I just can't find the motivation and enthusiasm to start work. I tried studying today, but ended up playing Street Fighter 4, and watched TV from 7.30 PM to 11 PM. =S
Thanks for reading yet another boring edition of Benedict's blog news! =) I'll be needing to get some rest for my appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow. Will keep u guys updated.
Truckload of shit waiting to pour down on me (that was crude but oh well =P)... And I just can't find the motivation and enthusiasm to start work. I tried studying today, but ended up playing Street Fighter 4, and watched TV from 7.30 PM to 11 PM. =S
Thanks for reading yet another boring edition of Benedict's blog news! =) I'll be needing to get some rest for my appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow. Will keep u guys updated.
I'm feeling more and more suffocated in the dredgery of the Singaporean lifestyle...
I need a break from all the madness in this society...
I need a break from all the madness in this society...
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Cos' u had a bad day~
(Monday, February 16, 2009/11:56 PM)
I never thought I'd experience the day when I would vomit again. I remember the last terrible bout of vomiting I had was in Primary 2 or 3, and since then, I've not done so despite any circumstance.
Even when I was dead drunk in Secondary 3, I felt no urge to vomit. After over 10 years of a clean slate, I had this weird feeling building within me yesterday night, and before I knew it, The Merlion in me manifested after over 10 years of pent-up frustrations. (-_-")
I got no idea what I've eaten, man... My family ate the same dinner, although I did snack on Pringles in the night. I've got a feeling it's that darn kampung chicken which my father bought back. God knows how long it has been out in the open before he bought it back.
Is it a one-time unfortunate event, or further indication that my frail body is deteriorating? I just don't know, man... This semester has been extremely tough for me. My tension headaches are getting from bad to worse, and I just can't muster the enthusiasm to start working on my important and crucial computing projects. I'm just so afraid I'll drag the rest of my team mates down with me. I gotta get my act together desperately soon...
Even when I was dead drunk in Secondary 3, I felt no urge to vomit. After over 10 years of a clean slate, I had this weird feeling building within me yesterday night, and before I knew it, The Merlion in me manifested after over 10 years of pent-up frustrations. (-_-")
I got no idea what I've eaten, man... My family ate the same dinner, although I did snack on Pringles in the night. I've got a feeling it's that darn kampung chicken which my father bought back. God knows how long it has been out in the open before he bought it back.
Is it a one-time unfortunate event, or further indication that my frail body is deteriorating? I just don't know, man... This semester has been extremely tough for me. My tension headaches are getting from bad to worse, and I just can't muster the enthusiasm to start working on my important and crucial computing projects. I'm just so afraid I'll drag the rest of my team mates down with me. I gotta get my act together desperately soon...
Jesus, by your stripes, I'm healed
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TUBBY THE BEAR!!!
(Sunday, February 15, 2009/11:58 PM)
This week seemed to last for eons, probably cos' I was exceptionally busy for this week. Whew, glad to get some needed rest and proper time dedicated to schoolwork and revision on Sunday!
Monday: Afternoon doctor's appointment at Raffles Hospital, followed by CS2103 meeting, and the unraveling of Tubby the bear, my uber belated birthday present! (^o^)
Omg... What the heck is Ivan doing? LOL! =D
Final group pic before going our separate ways...
Monday: Afternoon doctor's appointment at Raffles Hospital, followed by CS2103 meeting, and the unraveling of Tubby the bear, my uber belated birthday present! (^o^)
Omg... What the heck is Ivan doing? LOL! =D
I love bear bear! YAY! XD
Final group pic before going our separate ways...Wednesday: Had my usual late-night Japanese classes at Orchard. My sensei is as desperate as I am for a lover *LOL*! She keeps cracking love-related jokes and create love-related conversational questions throughout the entire time. =S
Thursday: Supposedly end lessons at 12 noon, but had to stay back for projects, and went home just barely in time for my nap. My rest time wasn't shiok enough! =X
Friday: Kena peer-pressured to go for a JSS event. It's gou-kon a.k.a Japanese blind date style. Almost went for my first ever JSS event but my laoda last minute invited me out for dinner at Holland Village, so I had a valid reason to let me off the hook. =P
Probably feel awkward with the JSS peeps as well cos' they're just too clique-ish, I just can't find a way to 'infiltrate' their circle especially I'm not exactly a chatty out-going kinda dude. The laojiao gathering was fine, apart from the occasional sarcastic ridicule by Collin. Oh well, just let him have his few hours of fun poking fun of me, since I won't be meeting him that often anyways. Haha sigh... =)
Saturday: 22nd lonely Valentine's Day. =( Single girls wouldn't feel that bad since the occasion has been commercialized to 'Friendship Day' as well. It's no problem amongst girls cos' they have no qualms showering each other with presents, hugs, and affection. On the other hand, it's just... plain weird for guys to do the same. =S
Anyhow, I went to service as usual, and had a little Valentine's Day consolation cos' I sat behind my gina crush's CG. My best pals, Kelvin and Deb, went off for a romantic Valentine's Day dinner after service. I just don't get it why Janet is so uptight about Valentine's Day *rofl*. No big deal, gal! =P
My zone's youth bachelor/bachelorette gathering is at friggin' SIGLAP!? and so, I decided to give it a pass, and return to the comfort of my home, slug it out and vent my frustrations on my newly bought Street Fighter 4 for PS3. >:)
Going for my 2nd psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. Kristal was quite shocked when I revealed that I was going to a psychiatrist. "Wa, so serious ah?" LOL! Everyone has a misconception that going to a psychiatrist means I'm in deep shit, from a mental perspective.
Last visit was rather unfruitful cos' I didn't have real serious problems such as suicidal thoughts or severe depression, so she couldn't give a proper diagnosis. I'm just suffering from tension headaches and common distress, damnit! I've done up some homework for my doctor, and hopefully, it'll be much more productive tomorrow. It's freaking $200 per consultation. Arghhh... >:(
Hope to get some much-needed rest this week... Highly doubtful as I need to start coding for my CS2103 and CS3240 projects soon. Programming suxorZzZ to the max...
Thursday: Supposedly end lessons at 12 noon, but had to stay back for projects, and went home just barely in time for my nap. My rest time wasn't shiok enough! =X
Friday: Kena peer-pressured to go for a JSS event. It's gou-kon a.k.a Japanese blind date style. Almost went for my first ever JSS event but my laoda last minute invited me out for dinner at Holland Village, so I had a valid reason to let me off the hook. =P
Probably feel awkward with the JSS peeps as well cos' they're just too clique-ish, I just can't find a way to 'infiltrate' their circle especially I'm not exactly a chatty out-going kinda dude. The laojiao gathering was fine, apart from the occasional sarcastic ridicule by Collin. Oh well, just let him have his few hours of fun poking fun of me, since I won't be meeting him that often anyways. Haha sigh... =)
Saturday: 22nd lonely Valentine's Day. =( Single girls wouldn't feel that bad since the occasion has been commercialized to 'Friendship Day' as well. It's no problem amongst girls cos' they have no qualms showering each other with presents, hugs, and affection. On the other hand, it's just... plain weird for guys to do the same. =S
Anyhow, I went to service as usual, and had a little Valentine's Day consolation cos' I sat behind my gina crush's CG. My best pals, Kelvin and Deb, went off for a romantic Valentine's Day dinner after service. I just don't get it why Janet is so uptight about Valentine's Day *rofl*. No big deal, gal! =P
My zone's youth bachelor/bachelorette gathering is at friggin' SIGLAP!? and so, I decided to give it a pass, and return to the comfort of my home, slug it out and vent my frustrations on my newly bought Street Fighter 4 for PS3. >:)
Going for my 2nd psychiatrist appointment tomorrow. Kristal was quite shocked when I revealed that I was going to a psychiatrist. "Wa, so serious ah?" LOL! Everyone has a misconception that going to a psychiatrist means I'm in deep shit, from a mental perspective.
Last visit was rather unfruitful cos' I didn't have real serious problems such as suicidal thoughts or severe depression, so she couldn't give a proper diagnosis. I'm just suffering from tension headaches and common distress, damnit! I've done up some homework for my doctor, and hopefully, it'll be much more productive tomorrow. It's freaking $200 per consultation. Arghhh... >:(
Hope to get some much-needed rest this week... Highly doubtful as I need to start coding for my CS2103 and CS3240 projects soon. Programming suxorZzZ to the max...
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So many 21st birthday celebrations...!~
(Monday, February 9, 2009/12:49 AM)
Whew... There's so many 21st birthday parties this year! After attending Janet's birthday party last Saturday, Jamie's birthday party just last Friday followed up next! The theme of the party was supposed to be a superhero theme, but only the usual suspects dared to wear flamboyant outfits. (Janet of cos'! And Weijie... OMG *LOL*!) The rest all decided to be normal trendy people and wear stylish Superman logo T-shirts *haha*!
First things first, the long-awaited picture from Janet's birthday party...
As usual, I had a sickening migraine on Friday, and having a 10 AM - 6 PM school schedule didn't help matters either. I contemplated pangseh-ing everyone and return home to rest, but forced myself to go, since the 21st birthday of most people are important and I would want to support my dear sister-in-Christ, Jamie, in any way possible.
Elson bought some toy guns, and I decided to play pranks on Janet (^w^) (she's not in this picture though)
Attacked by Wonderwoman a.k.a siao zabor! *LOL*
Kena 'voyeured' while writing Jamie's guestbook =S
Dang! Janet's stupid hat is sooo big... >:(
Wonderwoman strikes again! (>.<) 
Birthday girl, Wen Long, and me! (^_^)
Church friends united! =)
As usual, I had a sickening migraine on Friday, and having a 10 AM - 6 PM school schedule didn't help matters either. I contemplated pangseh-ing everyone and return home to rest, but forced myself to go, since the 21st birthday of most people are important and I would want to support my dear sister-in-Christ, Jamie, in any way possible.
Elson bought some toy guns, and I decided to play pranks on Janet (^w^) (she's not in this picture though)
Attacked by Wonderwoman a.k.a siao zabor! *LOL*
Kena 'voyeured' while writing Jamie's guestbook =S
Dang! Janet's stupid hat is sooo big... >:(
Wonderwoman strikes again! (>.<) 
Birthday girl, Wen Long, and me! (^_^)
Church friends united! =)Ehhh... Shit, I've not bought any present for Jamie. And I had to rely on Liu Jing and Yuling to buy Janet's birthday present too! Pastor Kong mentioned that the top need of a woman is affection, and I'm just sooo clueless. =S How to get a girlfriend like that? Haha! =D I'll try my best to be more involved in my friends' birthdays so that my friends would do the same for me. =)
My Singtel clique built my super belated birthday bear bear for me! I WANT!!! But I can't seem to arrange a common timeslot for everyone to meet. Yeah, now, I realize ur difficulties, Ivan. Paiseh man, I promise to be more enthusiastic next time for our outings! =)
I'm going for my first consultation with my new psychiatrist tomorrow, and discussing the dreaded CS2103 project tomorrow as well. I've been accepted into church choir as well, and the first practice is this coming Tuesday! Oh God, I gotta get well soon...
My Singtel clique built my super belated birthday bear bear for me! I WANT!!! But I can't seem to arrange a common timeslot for everyone to meet. Yeah, now, I realize ur difficulties, Ivan. Paiseh man, I promise to be more enthusiastic next time for our outings! =)
I'm going for my first consultation with my new psychiatrist tomorrow, and discussing the dreaded CS2103 project tomorrow as well. I've been accepted into church choir as well, and the first practice is this coming Tuesday! Oh God, I gotta get well soon...
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Trying my best...
(Tuesday, February 3, 2009/11:32 PM)
What am I doing now? I'm chatting with a new pen-pal from China, and she refuses to tell me how she got hold of my email. Omg, I've not typed so many Chinese characters in eons. (-_-)" In fact, my Chinese knowledge is fast getting assimilated into Japanese kanji for good instead. =S Haha, trying hard to type in proper Chinese sentences. Whew!
I went to SAF Changi Yacht Club for the first time in my life last Saturday to attend Janet's birthday party. I was expecting the usual chiobus such as Amy and Weini, but I bumped into a very tall and slender model-like girl, and I was wondering who she was. When Janet told me she's my choir junior, I can't even believe my ears (and eyes) *LOL*! But oh well, she has a boyfriend already. Ops. =X
I would want to upload our group pictures taken that day to spice up this blog entry, but dunno why Janet haven't upload yet! Grrr... >:( And also to show some photos to some of my *certain* friends who were damn excited when I raved about the unexpected chiobu. Hehe! =)
On a duller note, I've been suffering from REAL extreme migraine since days before CNY and it's still persisting till today. At least for the lingering headache I have for the past one year, I still can muster energy to smile and lead life as normal. The pain I'm experiencing makes me cringe to the point I don't feel like talking or smiling. It's that bad. =(
My whole family "reported sick" yesterday *LOL*! My family GP must have gotten such a shock to see 4 of our family members entering her clinic one by one. She gave me some friendly advice, prescribed some painkillers to tide me over temporarily for this period of time, and referred me to a psychatrist, because my neurologist is an asshole who doesn't care two hoots about me.
Don't worry, I'm not a mental case. =) It's just that the common stress and anxiety which most city dwellers face, escalated into a physical problem in my case. I just need to find the crux of the problem and work together with my new doctor to find a remedy. Of cos', I'm still looking to God for His grace. =)
Well, if any of u are genuinely concerned about me, u might want to read through this thread which I posted in a medical forum. It expresses my true feelings which I've not discussed with anybody yet, not even my parents. I hope to get well soon, and be a good and faithful friend to all my buddies out there. ^_^
I went to SAF Changi Yacht Club for the first time in my life last Saturday to attend Janet's birthday party. I was expecting the usual chiobus such as Amy and Weini, but I bumped into a very tall and slender model-like girl, and I was wondering who she was. When Janet told me she's my choir junior, I can't even believe my ears (and eyes) *LOL*! But oh well, she has a boyfriend already. Ops. =X
I would want to upload our group pictures taken that day to spice up this blog entry, but dunno why Janet haven't upload yet! Grrr... >:( And also to show some photos to some of my *certain* friends who were damn excited when I raved about the unexpected chiobu. Hehe! =)
On a duller note, I've been suffering from REAL extreme migraine since days before CNY and it's still persisting till today. At least for the lingering headache I have for the past one year, I still can muster energy to smile and lead life as normal. The pain I'm experiencing makes me cringe to the point I don't feel like talking or smiling. It's that bad. =(
My whole family "reported sick" yesterday *LOL*! My family GP must have gotten such a shock to see 4 of our family members entering her clinic one by one. She gave me some friendly advice, prescribed some painkillers to tide me over temporarily for this period of time, and referred me to a psychatrist, because my neurologist is an asshole who doesn't care two hoots about me.
Don't worry, I'm not a mental case. =) It's just that the common stress and anxiety which most city dwellers face, escalated into a physical problem in my case. I just need to find the crux of the problem and work together with my new doctor to find a remedy. Of cos', I'm still looking to God for His grace. =)
Well, if any of u are genuinely concerned about me, u might want to read through this thread which I posted in a medical forum. It expresses my true feelings which I've not discussed with anybody yet, not even my parents. I hope to get well soon, and be a good and faithful friend to all my buddies out there. ^_^
http://www.depressionforums.org/forums/40mg-Feel-Crap-t29120.html
Computing projects are starting really soon... Omg... Another source of headaches... =(
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