My head... HURTS!!!
(Friday, September 5, 2008/10:28 PM)
I think I'm letting all these stress get to me. Nasty tension headaches are back in full force, and there are some days where I just feel like abandoning all my work and shut my eyes to coax myself to sleep cos' the only time the headache isn't affecting me is when I've drifted off to dreamland.
I'm also getting rather short-tongued recently. For some unknown reason, I keep stumbling on certain words and lengthy sentences. Hope it isn't related to this headache. Perhaps I'm just getting a little more self conscious cos' every NUS student seems to be so articulate during tutorial discussions. That's all... I hope...
Sigh... I feel like I'm in the worst shape of my entire life. Eversince I got this series of illnesses since the end of NS, it feels like the beginning of a series of neverending nightmares. But I can't fall now... Not when so many people are depending on me for projects in uni. I gotta keep moving on. Just gotta rely on God right now to see me through these tough times.
Anyways, I went to JP today to meet up with my JC econs teachers and JC clique. It's kinda rare for Eric to take initiative and organise an outing, so despite my nagging headache, I knew I had to go. My teacher actually forgot my name! But anyhow, we got that out of the way, and we had a nice time catching up with one another.
It feels great to maintain close contact with my JC clique recently. Eversince I went to NS and lost contact with most of my old cliques, and more so especially currently in the terrible hi-bye environment of NUS, I felt as if a part of me was missing. Now I know what I need. I need friends who I feel comfortable with, who can tolerate my antics, whom I can share my problems with. Not needing to put on a facade and act as someone I'm not.
Oh well, I hope I'd not rant on this blog every other week! Cos' it's inevitable that uni life will be miserable. Each and everyday of it. If u intend to waste ur time socializing and organising parties instead of studying, u'll fail ur exams. If u intend to mug and get good grades, dun expect ur life to be anything interesting. It's terribly hard to balance these 2 aspects. I'm still trying darn hard.
Alright guys, I guess u guys heard enough of my rants! I'll be returning with more interesting stuff!
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